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DELIRIUM

Not knowing everything is all that makes it okay, sometimes. QUICK FACTS APPEARANCE PERSONALITY HISTORY SOCIAL ET CETERA

QUICK FACTS.

NAME: Delirium
NICKNAMES: Del
AGE: Endless

HEIGHT: Short
WEIGHT: Delicate
HAIR: Variable
EYES: Blue with silver flecks, Green

MARITAL STATUS: N/A
SEXUALITY: ...

AUGMENT: Civilian Cook
SHIP NAME: Here
SIBLINGS: Destiny, Death, Dream, Destruction, Desire, Despair

TRAITS: volatile, curious, wandering
LIKES: Barnabas, flying, bubbles
DISLIKES: rude people, yelling, being not pieces

APPEARANCE.

Delirium is a young, delicately built girl, her looks can range between 12 and 18, depending on how she feels. She is the most changeable of her family, always shifting appearances. Her hair is often bright, and changes lengths, colors, and styles with a seeming will of its own. Her eyes are mismatched, the one green, and the other a bright blue with sliver flecks. She shadow is tangible and never matches her own shape, moving of its own accord - much like her hair - and feeling like velvet to the touch. She's often dressed punk, in fishnets and too-long clothing or just scraps of cloth. She smells of old leather, sour sweat, and late nights.

PERSONALITY.

The world spins around her, and she spins around the world, and at the same time she never moves. Almost everything in Delirium’s life relates back to herself, as she stands in the middle of the crazy storms she creates. It’s not that she doesn’t care about other people, or is really that completely self-centered, though. Delirium loves fiercely, and then forgets that her love existed. That is not to say she ever stopped loving, but that out of sight does not need to happen before out of mind occurs. The broken fragments of her mind flow back and forth, in and out of conversations and interactions. She is always out of her mind, and just as well, since her flashes of lucidity and insight are frightening enough. In emergencies, Delirium has been known to pull herself together if it is needed - after all, only one person can truly be broken at a time (especially if there are only two of you) – and when she does, her eyes blend into a teal color. But forcing the pieces of herself back together hurts, like glass and fire, and just can’t last. Afterwards, she usually needs to be soothed with a break from even the loosest connection, taking a nice vacation as a cloud of fish or sparkles.

Delirium is volatile, with a mood as mercurial as the ocean and as changeable as a breath of wind. The smallest things can set her off into a storm of tears, laughter, or both. Sometimes she knows everything, though she is usually even less lucid then than she is when she can’t remember her own name. Death once mentioned that no one should know everything, and the only thing that makes being alive okay is not knowing everything. Delirium is like living proof of that, but she doesn’t know how to balance knowing and not knowing.

HISTORY.

The Endless don’t see morality in the human sense, and Delirium sees it even more skewed than the rest of her family. That is always the most important part to remember. Immortality brings a certain bend to morality in the first place, extend that life into infinity and then add insanity – it’s a melting pot for a twisted sense of right and wrong. Delirium wants to do right, usually, but she doesn’t understand what right is. She is affiliated to all people in her realm, the benign and criminal alike, and she has bits of all of them inside her. Very simply, classified in D&D terms, she is chaotic neutral. For example, in book VII, Brief Lives, Delirium and Dream are being driven around by a nice chauffeur. Their driver ends up being killed by a trap set by Destruction to hinder anyone finding him. Delirium’s first thought on hearing the news is that now she gets to drive the car like she wanted to that morning. It’s very selfish, and not malicious.

Delirium is the youngest of the Endless, an anthropomorphic personification of insanity, created into a family of seven containing (in order); Destiny, Death, Dream, Destruction, Desire, Despair, and Delirium herself. She has a complex about being the youngest. She doesn’t feel that being the youngest makes her less, and gets upset at being teased by Desire. It’s a little bit her curse, being the youngest of the oldest beings she knows, because she feels like the rest of the family looks down on her. In some ways, they do, of course. Her insanity makes her difficult to deal with, and condescension is easy for them to fall into – particularly with Desire, who Delirium tends to bicker with the most.

Delirium was not always as she is, once – long ago, before many can remember – she was Delight. In those times, worshipers would come to lay gifts of flowers and jewels at her feet. It is not so, anymore, and has not been so for a very long time. Something happened, something she does not speak of. There are debates on what, exactly, happened to caused Delight to turn into Delirium, and I ascribe to a combination of possibilities. The first possibility says that she experienced an extremely traumatic event which led her to take refuge in her own mind. The second family of belief thinks that Delirium had to change as society changed. As pure delight became lost to the world, she had to reflect her realm in whatever way she could, and becoming insane was the closest reflection of the world that allowed her to maintain her basic character. I believe that Delirium is strong enough to have withstood one of these things – she would have been able to reflect the delight of children even if society changed, after all, and she would have been able to work through the trauma with her family and those who fell under the purview of her realm. The two influences in conjunction are what drove her to breaking, both the abuse of her innocence and then the loss of it in the world for her to fall back on shattering her mind. As she was shifting from Delight to Delirium her beloved brother, Destruction, held her on a hill in her realm as she laughed and cried and feared why her hills and flowers melted into chaos around her.

She has her own realm, like all of the Endless - built of herself and the thoughts and minds of her people - but she isn’t there often. She prefers the wander, or be lost, wherever the current mood strikes her. She is insanity personified; chaotic, vague, drifting. A waif lost on the breeze of her next thought and never considering what will happen when she makes an action. Delirium has never stayed in the same place for particularly long. She likes to be moving from one place to the next, a wanderlust without a purpose. Meandering between realities and worlds with little understanding of time and place, Delirium tends to spend her days visiting those who exist in her realm. She’ll sit with them on street corners, in doorways, on stoops – they don’t have to be talking, but she takes and gives comfort just by her presence, even if it is only in passing. The people in her realm are crazy but they are not alone, and Delirium needs to receive that comfort as much as they do. She seeks out her family in emergencies or for a purpose (though sometimes she forgets why she’s finding him while she’s looking), and owns a dog, Barnabas, who keeps her company and cares for her wellbeing. Barnabas was given to her as a result of a plan gone awry when she convinced Dream to help her find their prodigal brother Destruction.

FRIENDS.